I woke up tired every single day.
Not ordinary tired. The kind of tired that sleep doesn't fix.
I'd open my eyes in the morning and immediately want to close them again.
Getting out of bed felt like dragging myself through wet concrete.
And that was before I'd done anything at all.
I put on nearly 3 stone in four years without changing what I ate.
My hair came out in handfuls every time I showered. I started styling it differently to hide the thinning.
I was cold when everyone else was perfectly comfortable.
In meetings I'd lose my train of thought. At home I'd walk into a room and forget why I'd gone in. My family thought I was being lazy. My GP thought it was "just my age." I was starting to believe them both.
The most frustrating part was that I was doing everything right:
I took my 88mcg of Levothyroxine every morning on an empty stomach. I went to every check-up. My results always came back "within range."
And I still felt exactly the same.
I spent over £3,000 on private endocrinologist appointments. Every single one told me the same thing.
"Your TSH is fine. Try eating less."
"Your levels are normal. It's probably stress."
"You're on the right dose. These things take patience."
They made me feel like the problem was me. That I wasn't trying hard enough. That I was exaggerating.
I started to think perhaps this was just how the rest of my life would be.