I woke up tired every day.
Not normal tiredness. A tiredness that sleep wouldn't cure.
I'd open my eyes in the morning and already want to close them again.
I'd get out of bed as if I'd been beaten black and blue overnight.
And that was before doing anything.
I gained 42 lbs in 4 years without changing what I ate.
My hair would fall out in clumps when I showered.
The drain would get clogged. I started styling my hair differently to hide it.
I felt cold when others weren't cold.
In meetings, I'd lose my train of thought. At home, I'd forget things. I'd walk into a room and not remember why I went there.
My family thought I was lazy.
My doctor thought it was "age."
I was starting to believe both of them.
The most frustrating part was that I was doing everything right:
I took my 88mcg of Levothyroxine every morning on an empty stomach.
I went to my check-ups.
My test results always came back "in range."
And I still felt exactly the same.
I spent over $3,000 on private consultations with endocrinologists who told me the same thing.
"Your TSH is fine. Try to eat less."
"Your levels are normal. It's stress."
"You're on the best possible dose. You need to be patient."
They made me feel like I was the problem.
That I wasn't trying hard enough.
That I was exaggerating.
I started to think that maybe this was how I would have to live the rest of my life.